Nathan Exposed: the naked truth about my gay life

Day 6 - Blue

Blue

Here we have another one of those happy accidents. I wanted a photo in a chair, it’s that simple. I could not get the angle, the position, or the lighting that I visualized in my head. I was sitting next to a window. I wanted a straight forward shot, looking into the camera.

This is what I got instead, and I almost trashed it too. This photo was horizontal, and my arm was in a very awkward position on the window pane. When you’re working with a camera timer, you only have a short period to get yourself into position, and sometimes the poses look bad. This was a classic example. However, when I cropped it into a vertical shot, it took on a whole new feeling.

I felt really happy with the result. I also like the strange blue reflection on my eye. I don’t know if it was the lighting, or what, but I like it. I also chose the simple title of “Blue” because I think the color of my shirt added a lot. It would not be the same photo with any other color.

Yes, I am really beginning to see myself now, from the outside.

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Tue, Sep 19, 2006 @ 12:00 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 5 Comments

Day 5 - Shadow

Shadow

I took this photo during the same set that I used for yesterday’s photo. I wanted a shadowy photo that focused on shape, and not detail. It was taken in front of the same window, and I edited it to be a stark black and white. I think that’s where most people would have left it, but I wanted to add one more touch. I added a layer of color over it to balance out the darkness of it, and went with a very bold magenta. I like the outcome, although it does remind me of an iPod ad. That’s okay, everybody knows I love Apple.

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Mon, Sep 18, 2006 @ 12:00 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 2 Comments

Day 4 - Screened

Screened

You’re looking at a photo that almost didn’t happen. I had an idea to take a photo using a screen with the sun shining through it. I waited until the sun was setting tonight, and reflecting through the windows. When the magical hour arrived, I quickly set up the screen and tried to angle it so the sun would blast through the blinds and the screen.

I wanted to be partially behind the screen to create texture and high contrast with a washed out background. I also wanted to look very neutral. I wore a black ribbed shirt, and combed my hair to be very straight. I just wanted things to be very stark, but heavily textured with the screen and my clothing.

As luck would have it, making that a reality was not so easy.

The initial pictures were terrible. I was sweating because of the heat from the sun. Today just happened to be the hottest one of the week. I did not get the picture I wanted and the sun was quickly disappearing.

I made one last effort. I sat completely behind the screen and took some shots with the sun right behind my head. It created a large shadow against the screen, and the texture was incredible. I then brought it into Photoshop and maxed out the contrast. When I did that, it created a spectrum of yellows and reds. I loved it. This is the end result.

I like playing with very different concepts on my photos. You will see more as the week goes on. I liked this particular project so much that I will be using a second “failed” photo tomorrow.

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Sun, Sep 17, 2006 @ 12:00 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 5 Comments

Day 3 - Fun with a Mirror.

Fun with a Mirror

I took this photo against the bathroom mirror so the back of my head would reflect in the shot. I cropped it from a horizontal photo because I felt it made the perspective more interesting. On a sidenote, thanks for all the positive feedback I’ve received so far. I really appreciate it!

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Sat, Sep 16, 2006 @ 12:00 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 6 Comments

Day 2 - High Contrast Smile

High Contrast Smile

Here is a simple, straight forward shot, enhanced with high contrast lighting. There isn’t a lot of story behind it, just me looking all smiley. :)

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Fri, Sep 15, 2006 @ 12:00 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 4 Comments

Day 1 - Missing You

Missing You

When Rodney has to work evenings, I feel lonely. Home is not the same without him in it. I like it when we spend time on the couch together during the evenings. When he’s not there, it just feels like an empty house.

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Thu, Sep 14, 2006 @ 12:00 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 8 Comments

30 Days

What do people see when they look at me? Do they really know me? Do they understand the real me?

Last week, I was very inspired by a couple of photo journals I’d seen online. I discussed them in this post. Judging by your responses, a lot of you wonder how you look on the outside too. Sometimes it is jarring to see ourselves in photos. We look so different in the mirror, don’t we?

Most people keep a photo journal for at least 365 days, and many do it for years. I don’t know if I can commit to that. I don’t know if I want to see that much of myself.

So instead, I’m just doing 30 days. It will be my own journey of self discovery. I want to capture all kinds of emotions to really see myself.

I’ll start posting this Thursday, September 14th. I’m very uncomfortable with posting my photos online, so go easy on me! This isn’t an exercise in photography, it’s just something to help me see myself in different ways.

If you want to participate on your blog, please do so. I’d love to see 30 days of you, too!

Tue, Sep 12, 2006 @ 10:40 am | Filed in 30 Days | Permalink 4 Comments