I’ve been trying for weeks to write this post. I can’t seem to even find a starting point.

I’ve hit rock bottom. Really hit it hard. I don’t know what’s happening to me.

How does a soul get so broken? When did my spirit and enthusiasm begin to die?

I’m working with a counselor. I have to get through this. Damn it, I know I’m better than this. I know I can be stronger.

Of course you can, Nathan. But sometimes you have to be broken first before you can be strong. It’s fine to hit rock bottom, as long as you don’t stay there for too long. xo

{hugs}

Now wait, I thought things were going okay for you…..I’m confused! You know, there’s the “I should” part of our lives. And there’s the “I should not” part of our lives. And we hear those messages from inside ourselves — the heart says one thing, the head another. And then we hear them from outside…other people telling us this or that. I encourage you to let all of them go. No more should’s or should nots. No more rules. Let yourself form a new approach to your life, a new set of parameters to work within. Let the old ideas and rules go. Let a new set of fresh approaches come in. Seriously. Big hugs. xoxoxoxoxoxo

I’m sorry to hear how terrible you’re feeling. Wanted to let you know I’m sending some positive thoughts your way. You’ll get through this

I know that you are going to find your way again, Nathan. The wonderful spirit inside of you is too strong to just lay dormant and not fight back!

I’m relieved that you are seeking guidance from a professional. Asking for help is tough, and exposing your wounds is a painful but necessary part of the healing process. You know I speak from exprience.

I’m so proud of you for starting this journey! Big virtual hugs are on the way…..

Thanks all. I know I’ve been acting like things are okay… I have a tendency to fake a little bit when I’m down. Truth is, this has been happening on and off for the last year.

Hopefully I can kick this eventually.

Nathan….If I may be so bold. You were involved in a relationship at a young age (18 maybe?) for 10 years and regardless of the reason, ended. During that time, you developed a deep sense of affection & trust and became like “old shoes” with each other. You attempted to “bounce back” and immediately jumped into the shark tank of the dating world and got “shit on” ….this really hurts & sometimes pulls into question, what’s wrong with me? (we’ve all been there). I feel you’re doing the brave thing now and working on Nathan. Nathan is going to be better than ever!

XXOO….Joe

Hey Nathan…
Things will get better thats for sure. I know that feeling too well of just hitting rock bottom and losing emphusiasm towards anything and everything. You are strong and keep having to tell yourself that. You know youself that you are strong and you didnt need anyone to tell you that. That is a start and at least you are going in the right direction. From now on, there is no other way than up and we all know you can do it and get through this. Everyone here supports you and wishes you well.
And it is quite obvious that we like giving hugs, so why not one more!! =D
*big huggies*

I’ve battled depression my whole life, and learned a long time ago that I’m not broken, diseased, or “abnormal” because I am chronically depressed (I used to feel that way). I’ve learned that it’s ok and confronting it head on is the way to go. Recognizing and treating being in the dumps is a GOOD thing. Doing nothing is not. Good for you and look forward to talking with you soon.

I feel so loved. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Big hugs

I’ve been there. I’m just an e-mail away if you ever need to talk.

((( hugs )))