Nobody Wants to Be Lonely, Part 2
Last Friday, I started telling the story of how I fell in love with Rodney while I was still in a relationship with Don. This is the continuation.
Thurday, March 1st (After Midnight)
I stood in the bathroom doorway, Don was in the bedroom doorway. I said “Don, I can’t do this anymore. I’ve been so wrong, and I’m sorry. But it’s over.â€
Then came the face I will never forget. Don’s heart broke. I have never seen a more awful reaction. It was like his whole body shut down. He died inside and I saw it with my own eyes. He started crying, and I couldn’t believe it had really happened.
I tried to console him, but just being near him made me sick…
Later that night, we tried to get some sleep. It was very awkward sleeping in the same bed. Don got pissed and said “I can’t do this. You’re going to have to sleep on the couch!”.
That was fine. I deserved it. I moved to the living room, but wasn’t able to sleep.
All I could think about was Rodney. I seriously considered standing outside his balcony, proclaiming my love for him. I wanted to tell the whole world about this guy I loved.
Friday, March 2nd – “Nobody Wants to Be Lonely”
It was the weekend, finally. I bought 2 roses on the way home from work (one rose to represent me, one to represent Rodney). I stopped by the apartment to clean up and change clothes before I saw Rodney. I put on the cologne Pleasures, which seems to be impossible for gay guys to resist. Don was home, and saw how excited I was about going over to Rodney’s. Looking back, it must have absolutely crushed him to see me getting ready for someone else. I didn’t know what else to do. This was still my home.
One of the songs Rodney and I really liked was “Nobody Wants to Be Lonely” by Ricky Martin and Christina Aguilera. I wrote some of the lyrics from that song on the card attached to the roses. I won’t say exactly what lines I posted, because I want to keep some things sacred.
So I went over to Rodney’s and gave him the roses. He was flattered by the gesture.
Saturday, March 3rd
Skipping ahead, Rodney and I considered our relationship “official” on March 3rd, 2001. We shared our first kiss and started our new life together on that day. We have been together ever since.
It wasn’t easy. Don and I attempted to be friends, but that was a mistake. He constantly jabbed me with subtle comments that made me feel awful for what I did. I know I will always be “wrong” in his eyes. Apparently he’s moved on, but he still tries to contact me. I don’t reply to his e-mails anymore. It’s just easier that way.
I’m really glad everything has worked out with Rodney. These were difficult circumstances for starting a new relationship.
But I would rather be with someone I love than stay in a relationship I wasn’t happy in. And that’s exactly what I did.
We only get one chance at life.
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Thanks for the closure, Nathan.
You’re a very good story teller. 
Thank you, Sunshine! You’re a very good listener.
Actually, I read.
Wow…this post struck a nerve with me. I won’t go into the details but just trust me.
As for the weather (in the former post) ummm, yea. 72 yesterday. 31 today! UGH!
Interesting play with words.
I loved listening about this on your podcast and I just found this old post and read it again. It’s such a lovely story and I think you were right. If you weren’t happy with Don you shouldn’t have stayed with him. Yayy right decision! :]
You should post some more pictures of you and Rodney on your site!