These Are My Confessions, Part 2
Oct 15, 2005 | Filed in Confessions | 1 Comment
In my first chapter, I only listed very light facts about myself. But now I am going to talk about the very heavy stuff that I feel very strongly about.
Some people might not like what they read, but remember that this is my blog and these are my views.
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Spirituality
- I was raised Catholic and I believe the religion made it so much harder to for me to deal with being gay because of the way Catholic churches push judgement and intolerance into its “family values”
- I do not believe that hate should be a family value
- I believe very strongly in God. But I will not force my beliefs on other people, because I know how it feels to be on the receiving end
- When I was growing up, I knew I was “different” and I was an outcast at school. In 5th grade, my Mom sent a letter to Mother Teresa asking for her to pray for me. Mother Teresa sent me a prayer and a blue plastic Rosary. I have carried that Rosary in my left pocket (the side of my heart) every day for over 12 years. It is very cracked and worn, but remains strong and unbreakable, just like me.
Hot Button Topics
- I have never done drugs, and I am very against them. I have seen a lot of friends ruin their lives because of drugs. It’s just not worth it. But I’m not very sensitive about it. If somebody talks about them, I don’t necessarily care. But it will knock my respect for you down a level or two.
- I am also against abortion and consider it murder. I don’t like it when politicians discuss abortion and gay marriage in the same sentence. Making a commitment to the person you love has no relation to killing a baby. I am also offended by women who use abortion as birth control. As a gay man, I know it is going to be a struggle to have a child, especially if it is through adoption. While I’m working so hard to get a baby, someone else is ripping it out of her like it’s nothing. Just like religion, I refuse to debate it.
- I don’t understand why our country is “at war” and I think this “war” has been the biggest hoax in history. I try to remain in denial because it upsets me so much to think about how many innocent people are dying.
Body Modification
- When I was 17, I got a scorpion tattoo because of my astrological sign. The astrological analysis of my personality is very accurate and I fit almost every Scorpio stereotype there is. But I have very little faith in horoscopes (which people confuse with astrology).
- I used to think guys with piercings were so hot. It’s a good thing I never got one myself. Some holes don’t heal.
Gay Stuff
- I started my first relationship with a guy when I was 15. I came out to my parents when I was 16. It’s been a continuous process but I am pretty open these days.
- Being gay in high school caused a lot of problems for me. We’re talking real hate crimes here. You can find me venting about the demons of my past throughout my blog, but most of it is in the “Gay” category.
- I don’t believe in “open” relationships. I think it is an excuse to say “I’m too much of a slut to make a commitment, so I’m just going to make up a term for it so that people will accept my need to fuck everyone.” Yeah, I know that sounds harsh. But sexually transmitted diseases are still a problem for all people (straight, gay, bi…) and we are losing the fight. Condoms are not guaranteed and there are some diseases that condoms cannot prevent. Futher, it is hard to push for gay marriage when “open relationships” confirm stereotypes about gay men.
- I don’t understand bisexuals. I’ve had to fight for everything I have, while they get to ride the fence. That doesn’t mean I dislike them. I just don’t understand them. The only bisexuals I’ve known ended up finally coming to me and say “You were right, Nathan, I really am gay and I was just scared.” So I’ve never actually known a “real” bisexual in person.
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Wow, I can’t believe we have so much in common! There is one minor difference but you’ll have to guess what it is.